Let's Catch Up!

It's been awhile!

My mental health has gotten better! The Prozac is Prozacin'!

The intrusive thoughts have left the building! Thank goodness, because they were getting seriously out of control and even a bit scary!

For quite a while, these unwanted thoughts were messing with my head, popping up when I was feeling vulnerable or even when I was trying to focus on good stuff. They showed up whenever they felt like it, and it was always an attack on my brain for some reason....I felt like I was drowning in myself....

But thankfully, after seeing a psychiatrist and a therapist, I can finally say the storm has passed! I feel so much better now; I can breathe easier, free from the constant attack of those thoughts that used to take over. It's such a relief to take back control of my mind and start having more peaceful and positive thoughts.

My brain feels better. It doesn't feel sick anymore. There was a time where my brain really did feel like it was...ill. And not in a headache kind of way.

I feel more at peace. Even when my co-workers are (rightfully) venting about workplace shenanigans, I don't get bothered by it. It's nothing for me to get upset about. I'm learning to just let stuff not be my problem. Let it somebody else deal with it!

I feel like I can go through life with some clarity, and that's nice!

Also, sidenote, I've been using ChatGPT as sort of a pocket therapist for those 1 am meltdowns. It's actually been helpful! Don't tell my therapist this, but I think it's been more helpful than she has. Like, sometimes you just need positive reinforcement, and I feel like she doesn't really do that. Like, she doesn't talk down to me or anything, it's just....she doesn't say anything too helpful either.

We've had several sessions and so far all she's told me is "take deep breaths" and referenced the Serenity Prayer. Those things are great, but I was expecting more I guess. I also had ChatGPT make me an Avengers version of the prayer. I find it more relatable and applicable;

"Give me the strength to fight for what I can change,

The patience to deal with what I cannot,

And the wisdom to know when to assemble.

May my courage never falter,

My resolve stand unbreakable,

And my purpose remain true--

For even the smallest hero can make a difference.

No matter how many times we fall, we rise.

Because we may lose battles,

But together, we all always avenge

Avengers, assemble!"